By finally understanding the true nature of the loneliness I had been unable to face, I was able to trust myself for the first time. A field I started during the COVID-19 pandemic. Encounters with the land of Kumamoto and precious people. Through days and nights with my family, sharing both joy and hardship, I met another important presence within myself. The trajectory of life leading to a new realm, waiting at the end of the essays that chronicle my days.